Talking to Myself


6.30.2012
I think it's really nice to be able to say that you love your job.

Of course, there are a lot of painful and sad things as well, but

lately I've started to realize, again, how blessed I am.

Tomorrow's the Akibaranger event.

Little me is going to appear at a huge venue like Nakano Sun Plaza.

I'm really, really nervous.

Actually, I'm so nervous that I couldn't even watch the last episode of Akibaranger. Haha

But whenever I feel like I'm going to be crushed by work or something I listen to Morning Musume。's 「Bravo!」.
It's a song on their album 『Fantasy! Jitsuichi』.
It's a great song and always cheers me up.

And recently I've been listening to the Vocaloid song 『HALO』.
I listened to the utaite Gero's cover video and have been telling myself that I have to work harder.

A lot of people are going to think, "Why are you talking about this kind of stuff all of the sudden!?" w

Ever since I gave my bad health as the reason for graduating from DANCEROID
I've been getting a lot of replies and comments asking, "How is your health?"
I'm sorry for making you worry.

I want to smile and answer with, "I'm doing fine!"

But if that were true, I wouldn't have made such an announcement.
So the truth is, I'm not in the best of shape right now.

When people send me comments or replies like, "How do you deal with stress?"
I can only answer with, "I'm sorry. I don't know."

But until I graduate from DANCEROID I have to work my hardest.
It's painful, tiring,
I was thinking that until just now.

But that's not right.

I'm happy.

I was able to do things that I love as work, like dance and, although I stink at it, acting.
I'm really, really happy.

While I was listening to that song I wrote about, I thought that I can't forget that.

I want to work harder.
I want to do everything that I can.

I want to become healthy soon.
I've just got to leave the treatment to my physician. They says it's a disease caused by the mind. If I think that I want to get better, I'm sure I will. It'll be ok.

It'll be ok. It'll be ok.

I'm a happy.

There are people that receive happiness from my videos,
my dancing,
and my work.

And that's why I can work hard.

I'll hold those feelings in my heart

and do my best at today's Akibaranger stage event.

I'll be positive and do my best with the rest of the DANCEROID activities before I graduate as well.

I need to have more self confidence.
In order to gain confidence I'll work harder on my dancing and on making myself shine.

I'll do my best.

I'm ok.

Sorry for the cluttered, long post.
If there's someone who's read this far, thank you very much.

I'll try even harder to make everyone smile.

But I think it's cooler not to say stuff like this!

I'm so nervous that I ended up complaining? w
I'm only human. \(^o^)/ Haha